So last night I pretty much spilled out my life's story to my mom.
In other words, I told her everything that had been eating away inside of me for literally months. I guess I've been kind of having these bouts of depression because of it. It was never necessarily a "depression", but it's just been feeling like something had been latched into my insides permanently, sucking away my happiness and determination and just making me feel.... down. I don't want to kill myself or anything. It's... hard to explain. I get stressed really
easily, let's just say.
Anyways, I'm one of those people who are somewhat reserved and usually keep deep, emotional thoughts deep inside my brain. I never really bother to share it to the world; I'm not sure, maybe it's the fear that the world just won't understand my true feelings. But when I told my mom... It just felt really good. The best part is, my mom understood my feelings; she didn't laugh at the cheesiness of it. Well, maybe that's just how moms are, y'know. ;u;
I know it sounds obvious that it's always better to show how you truly feel and crap like that; but hey, like I said, I'm not much of a person who does this, so to me, it was quite an accomplishment.
I'm trying my best to be happier. I can't spend the rest of my high school like in these deep, shitty blues. And in college. So I better get up off my ass and do something about it.
Nao. On a happier and little less-mortally-depressing-that-has-nothing-to-do-with-the-above-topic-like-seriously-wow-virtual-ADD-here:
I'm thinking of starting a Hetalia x Soul Eater crossover. ^^ I got really inspired by this one MAD video I saw (epic link here: [link]
), which is just the Soul Eater opening but instead it features all the Hetalia countries. I haven't got much of the story line down (I want to keep it somehow connected to the Soul Eater series, but I don't want it to be the exact story), but I think I've decided a few character partners (like weapon/meister relationships). Some of them are based off the MAD video; for example, I'm planning on making America and Canada - the twin brothers - be weapon and meister together. They'll be like Soul/Maka except both guys, and Canada's weapon form will be a scythe like Soul. I'm also planning on making Russia like Death the Kid, with Ukraine and Belarus as his two guns. And Lord Death? Most likely the Roman Empire, but still not sure. xD
I've only scratched the surface, but I'm getting there. :3
Alright, so I've finally taken advantage of this beautiful journal skin. Tomorrow will be back to the bland white-tidy ones... *sigh*
Cherry blossoms are my favorite tree. They're so gorgeous~ <3